Listening to Yann Tiersen’s CD Tabarly from 2008, it’s amazing.

Tomorrow is father’s day here in the US. I feel kinda awkward about it. Even though hubby is not MY father, I got him a present, and will say it’s from D and me both. It’s a memory foam pillow, for his injured neck, he really needs one according to his doctor. I’ve told D multiple times to make him a card, but so far I don’t think she has. I’m not going to bother her about it more, as said, he’s not MY dad. It’s her responsibility, not mine, and it’s not like I haven’t reminded her either.

I do feel a little split about it though, giving him a gift for father’s day. I really wanted to get celebrated this year, on stepmother’s day, and had pretty much told him so. I reminded him again and again, yet he still forgot. I even told him the day before, “Tomorrow’s stepmother day.” The way he was speaking about it with D, I really thought I’d get acknowledged. I didn’t expect any kind of recognition on mother’s day, since I am not D’s “real” mother, and besides, mother’s day happened to be the day my father died this year.

But I really was hoping for something on stepmother’s day, but nothing. It did hurt my feelings, it actually did. I do so much for that child, for HIS DAUGHTER. And in reality, I’m not obligated to do shit. I didn’t marry her, I married her father. There are no legalities that say that I have to feed her, clothe her, hug her, love her, keep her entertained. As far as the legalities go, as long as I don’t abuse her or kill her, I’m generally good to go. But I chose to care. All I ask is for is during one day a year, just one simple day, get a little bit of recognition, a thank you.

*Sigh* So it is with mixed feelings I look at tomorrow. He will get a present, and I will cook a decent dinner, like I do most days, but nothing more. He’s an awesome dad, I’ll give him that, and D is lucky to have him. But she also has a pretty awesome step-mom. Who does a hell of a lot more than she gets credit for.