December 26, 2009
Time off
I don’t like time off, I really don’t. I feel so inactive, so useless, purposeless. I have not done anything productive today except cook dinner, help D assemble some of her Christmas gifts, and call people in Sweden to thank them for the lovely gifts.
Time off gives my brain time to think, and I am a rather heavy thinker. I need to be involved in things, busy, that makes me happy. Having time off…. doesn’t.
I go back to school on the 7th, and that is way too far away, and I don’t like it. Sure, I know I am going to be swamped in the spring, working extra hours, taking 20 credits, as well as skating once a week (I really need to get back into shape – really…) and I am going to be tired out of my mind, but at least I will be doing something, moving forward in life. Breaks are just that – breaks. Pauses in the natural rhythm. As humans, we need to evolve, move forward. Right now I am not moving and it is annoying the hell out of me.
Tomorrow I am going to go to Walmart, to pick up a couple of things and then I am going to go to Barnes and Noble and waste some time there. Sarah will be moving back soon, so I will have some company.
God I am bored.
